Graduate school destroyed me.
I didn’t listen to my mind or body when it told me I wasn’t ready to start. I didn’t listen when it told me I was too exhausted to continue on. I didn’t listen when my mind questioned if I was pursuing what I wanted or what I thought the world wanted. I didn’t listen when my mind told me to seek clarity rather than continue pushing through the fog.
And by the time I realized I wasn’t ready, it was too late. Or was it? I told myself I was too far in to quit now. I told myself once I get the degree things will be better. I wasn’t brave enough to quit. I wasn’t brave enough to chase after what I wanted.
Anyone else ever felt as though they were dragging through life; as if you’ve given up all control over your life?
Facing the consequences can be scary. Facing the consequences can be daunting.
If I quit my job how will I make money? If I drop out of school what will my family think? If I take a year off to clear my mind, how will I ever pay back my loans?
There are endless questions you can ask yourself to stop yourself from doing what you want to do. There are endless excuses you can make as to why you can’t chase after your dreams. But the truth of the matter is that you are in charge of your own life. The only thing standing in your way is you.
If you really want something, you will make it happen. There is always a way to overcome the consequences of your decisions. You may have to get creative, but there is a way.
Life is too short to pursue something you don’t love. I strongly believe that you should take time to yourself to figure out your passions. And once you figure out those passions, pursue them with all your heart, mind, and soul.
We all have different strengths. We all have different passions. Just because the world tells you to chase after the career that makes you the most money or to chase after a lifestyle that gains you a certain status doesn’t mean that is what we should do.
We need to live in such a way that we go after what WE WANT TO GO AFTER. We need to live in such a way that we pursue our passions. Because in the end living a happy life is better than living a life aimed at showing off to others. Living a happy life is about listening to your mind and body, listening to what it needs, and purposefully pursuing that no matter the consequences or excuses.
And I don’t mean sound preachy, because honestly I need to practice what I preach as well. But my goal from this is to let you know that you are not alone. My goal is to build you up and create a community where we work to build each other up.
The most beautiful thing in this life is that God gave each and every one of us unique passions and gifts. I mean how boring would it be if everyone liked exactly the same thing, had exactly the same style, and no new ideas ever came into existence. EXTREMELY BORING! We need to hone-in on our individual passions and spiritual gifts in order better serve God and make the world a more vibrant place.
I will end with a Rachel Hollis quote because she inspires me greatly and I hope she will do the same for you: