As I sat there during sacrament meeting, praying about baptism and the temple, he told me I was silly for thinking I needed to be perfect if I wanted to be close to Him.
He told me that I was silly to believe that just because I was imperfect He would withhold blessings from me.
Instead, He told me the exact opposite.
God doesn’t want us to be perfect. He wants us to come to Him with all our flaws. He wants us to acknowledge our shortcomings. But most importantly, He wants us to keep growing.
If we keep doing what we are doing then we are not going anywhere. We will get stuck in a never-ending cycle that lacks growth. We have to face the hard things.
And sometimes the future is not so clear or God may put difficult trials in your way, but it is in those times that you must strive to grow. That you work hard, even if that means failure, because we truly can’t grow without failure. We can’t appreciate the light without darkness.
We may get tired of stumbling, of tripping on each step along this journey, but sometimes that is the only way to move forward.
So often I beat myself up for not being better. There is a desire in my heart and a longing to be better, but I allow other things to get in the way. I allow myself to get in the way. It is only when I take a step back, humble myself, and pray that I feel as if I am truly the person I am meant to be. But as quickly as that feeling comes, it vanishes.
So how do we become the sons and daughters we were meant to be? By continuing to fight. By continuing to follow the Spirit. By doing the hard things because in the end they are the worthwhile things.
This life was never meant to be easy. And luckily, you were never meant to be perfect. The Lord knew we would be apt to sin from the very beginning. Yet he still knows us and loves us each individually. No past mistakes, present mistakes, or future mistakes can keep you from his love. You simply must repent, forgive yourself, and keep on going.